Blubber To Runner

Seriously… I need to tell you about the last hour of my day.  Let me set it up.  I’m starving, and need to pick up water and dinner for this evening.  Had a decent breakfast and lunch, leaving me 20 Weight Watchers pts left for my dinner.  As I stated earlier this week in my last blog, I didn’t have the best of weigh-ins this week, so I’m trying to be extra good not only so my next weigh-in isn’t terrible, but because I’m in for a TERRIBLE weekend diet-wise due to upcoming… shenanigans… to take place.  So… I leave the house, and here’s what happens:

I go to the supermarket, grab the case of water and put it in the cart.  And the buffalo chicken by the door looks AMAZING, so I grab that too.  Along with a side of coleslaw.  I start walking to the register, turn around and put away the chicken and coleslaw – can’t have it, been too good this week.  I grab a Chicken Caesar Salad, and head to the register.  I walk PAST the register and head towards the hot dogs, because I decide my 1pt hot dogs are gonna be my dinner instead of the salad.  I grab the hot dogs and head over to the hot dog buns, grab them… and then decide that the hot dogs aren’t a great idea so I immediately put the buns back and take a short-cut down to the frozen food aisle.  Which is where I saw my all-time favorite food – Soft Pretzels.

I stop. I stare.  I open the freezer and figure out the points per pretzel.  4 points… not bad.  I put them in my cart and close the freezer.  I get back to the hot dog section and put back the hot dogs, look down at my cart and see water, the salad… and pretzels.  The gahdamn pretzels.  WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?!?!  I go and put back the pretzels… think about it… then put them back again.  I’m now disgusted at myself, put the salad back and just buy the water.  35 minutes in the supermarket – $3.78.

So I’m on the way home, and decide that the ice cream and frozen yogurt I saw when I went down the frozen food aisle looked DEE-licious, so I stop by the convenience store on my way home to see if they have anything.  Park… pull in… straight to the freezer.

Where I stood.  For 7 minutes.  You really have no idea how long 7 minutes is until you just stand doing nothing for that long.  But that’s what I did.  Stand.  For 7 minutes.  I didn’t get the ice cream, but have FINALLY made a decision – that Swedish Fish will be the item to get my sweet tooth/ sugar kick out of the way.  So I go over to the Swedish Fish… and they’re OUT.  I now aimlessly wander to see if there’s ANYTHING I want.  NOTHING.  10 minutes in the convenience store – $0.00

As I pull out of the convenience store, across the parking lot is my old friend Wendy… as in Wendy’s.  So I drive over to pick up a spicy chicken sandwich – and go right around the drive-through because I realize it’s the WORSE idea I’ve had yet, simply because I’m starving.  So I drive past the drive-thru… and get BACK in line, because it’s not really THAT bad of an idea.  I wise up, pull out and head home – this time for good.  2 laps around Wendy’s – $0.00

Between travel to and from location I spent an hour out and about in the monsoon that’s engulfed us in this area and spent $3.78 on water.  AND I’M EXHAUSTED – physically, but even moreso, mentally.

This is something that happens to me every so often.  It’s not always easy, but I need to be a little smarter when I do things like go to a grocery store when I’m hungry.  Not a good move for someone in my position.

Phew!  That felt good.  I feel better now.

Oh, and what did I FINALLY have for dinner?  As I type this – in front of a bottle of water and some baby carrots – I just don’t know yet.  What I do know is that it won’t screw up my progress this week… so that’s a plus!